16 Thoughts - Feb

Feb 16

February 2026 - a monumental month for the world and humanity as a whole. Important dates include: Saturn enters Aries 2/13, Mercury Retrograde is beginning 2/25, Solar Eclipse in Aquarius on 2/17, Neptune and Saturn Conjunction on 2/20. Head spinning yet? Just wait til you read my thoughts.

Yo soy practicamos español. Yo fui a puerto rico en la mes pasado! Esta es muy bonita y divertida! Clearly I need more practice but I am very much enjoying trying to speak spanish. It’s been long enough and I owe it to the people in my life who have learned English to learn Spanish. Also, PR is a really beautiful place and I had to BEST time snorkeling con los peses y las tortugas. Me encontre con un arbol viejo!!

2. Snorkeling is so wild. I’ve never swam in a reef like that before and I’ve never seen so many fish - literally thousands and some quite large and scary even. There was a Lion Fish that Deb was getting very close and as I’m signalling underwater for her to get awayI just kept hearing the “fishy fishy fishy” from Deuce Bigolo Male Gigolo. I know it’s pretty obvious but there is a literally an entire world under the ocean that is just going about life as I pay taxes and shovel snow. I also enjoyed sitting on the sand and watching the funny humans with their breathing sticks hover on the surface of the water knowing that they were seeing an entire universe I couldn’t see. Gratitude award this month goes to snorkel masks.

3. The last day in PR Neptune left Pisces and moved into Aries. Pisces is my 10th house of career and public image and Neptune was making that whole part of my chart fantastical since 2011 when I finished undergrad and moved out of the midwest for the first time. The ideas of grandeur I have held for my career, my purpose in life, and how others see me has been dizzying to say the least. I’m a little skeptical now of Neptune as it moves into Aries, my house of community, long term group goals, and friendships.

4. Saturn is also leaving Pisces but unlike the long transit of Neptune, it was only in Pisces since 2023. But even in that time, I can see how my career path has been shifted from the planet of boundaries being in that house. To an outsider, my career looks similar to how it did 2023 (teaching, performing, working at a restaurant, reading tarot, making my own schedule) but the shake up of BAH and the re-establishment of myself as a FREElance artist has given me a lot more confidence in saying what I do for a living. I’m not a 9-5 girl. Can’t pin me down, no way no how.

5. Saturn in Aries is a big deal for America tho too and that’s hardly a shocker. But really, the Bill of Rights was created with Saturn in Aries and it speaks to how we justify the rights of the individual while protecting the whole. Aries is the sign of the self, and ruled by Mars the god of war while Saturn is the planet of boundaries and lessons and consequences is said to be in it’s fall in Aries… because as they say, laws go out the window when a gun is pointed at your head. This is a fantastic article on the history of gun control and Saturn in Aries but on a practical level I think we are seeing this happening in real life as the entire Bill of Rights is getting stretched to the limits by this administration and some want to be tyrants.

6. Mercury is also going retrograde this month and through next 16 thoughts so prepare for some jumbles. I’ve actually really been looking forward to this Mercury Retrograde because I think I’ll get to have a clear mind in Pisces without Saturn on my back and Neptune mucking it up. I’m going to use it to actively edit and rewrite Rita so very happy for the time to dissect and redirect.

7. Okay - I know there has been a lot of astrology in this months thoughts…but it’s a big astrological month and it’s been on my mind. In particular this Neptune Saturn conjunction. So what is a conjunction - that is when two planets come together in the same place in the sky and Saturn and Neptune are doing that on February 20th at 0 degrees of Aries. These two planets don’t do this too often, only once every 36ish years, the last one corresponding with the fall of the Berlin Wall and the dissolving of the Soviet Union. Saturn is the planet of structure and Neptune is the god of the sea, ready to erode the structures that are not going to last. The last time Neptune was in Aries was during the US Civil war when we were also having discussions of ideals as a country, and what does it mean to be an individual in a nation. It’s going to be the entrance of a new era for us and signals a new beginning so specifically because it’s at the 0 degree point of Aries, which is when spring sprungs! I’m hesitantly walking forward and praying that whatever I’m walking on isn’t the structure that’s currently crumbling. For further reading on Saturn and Neptune Conjuctions in Aries check out this article.

8. I gave more tarot readings this January than any other year and I’m so so so happy to have worked with all the fine people that got new years readings! Thank you for your trust, and your time, and your money, I’m happy it helps even just a teensy bit. Let me know if you’re every curious about Tarot for a party, or a personal reading, or just wanna chat. And, if anyone wants to see MY reading for the year, here it is.

9. I’ve been reading fairy smut and I can’t get enough. God bless Kingfisher and the whole gang from Callie Hart’s Quicksilver, great beach read and really has me wondering about the whole fairy/fae/faith/fate etymology.

10. So these Epstein files… There is a lot of really horrible shit that is being uncovered and as a S.A. survivor it has been pretty damn triggering. At what point is it all enough? When do we stop with everyday life and start to look at what justice means? Because Justice depends on truth but the truth can be skewed and retaught as a different history. But what is Justice? An equal punishment for the pain inflicted? How can that even possibly begin to exist with the amount of pain and shame these powerful people brought onto these victims. What is Justice for the men who brought their families there. Those ones are some of the weirdest to me, like you bring your daughter and wife and family there knowing what shit went on at that house? That you maybe participated in? Like what the hell… How can you protect yourself when your protectors are predators and they are also the ones making the laws and prosecuting themself?

11. Okay… I love that MN has still been so damn awesome with the ICE protests and I get the urge but I really hate when people call people pussys. Like I get you want to because it’s what you think ICE would hate but acutally I hate it. Like he’s not a pussy a pussy is going to work when you don’t want to and being a boss ass bitch but also bleeding in every direction and no one knows how hungry you actually are. That’s a pussy. I dk if this analogy really works but I wish we could reclaim pussy.

12. A Harvard man walks into a bar. Alright, this might be the coolest thing to have happened to me this month. Update on my knee - I got an MRI and my ACL, MCL and meniscus all look good! Hooray! But I’ve got a little damage under my patella and I may have dislodged the whole thing when I hit it on the ground those many months ago. Anyway - I know that now, but the day I got my MRI I had no idea how to read it. So just my luck, I’m chatting to someone eating lunch at my work and it turns out he was an incredibly well renowned geneticist and he was in NYC to give a talk about the evolution of the human knee. So I was like, um… can you read me my MRI? Which he did and gave me a detailed breakdown of what probably happened when I hurt it. He also shared with me the types of cells that are needed for healing in the human cartilage, along with the confidence that I would heal. I’ve started PT and I have felt a lot more inclined to push myself because I know that’s what I need. But I mean, talk about serendipity! I really have a knack for calling in just the right people when I need to, and as Saturn moves into my house of friends and community, over the next few years I want to learn to harness that for the greater good somehow.

13. You’re not that special. Like everyone is special yes, but are we? I don’t know. I’ve been trying on this idea of I’m not that special. Sometimes I feel like I need to live for two because I’m only one and that’s exhausting and honestly I’m tired of the same story. My own purpose is whatever it’s going to be and I can easily dial down the pressure by thinking I’m not that special. Or at least that’s what my therapist tells me. It’s funny - the early days of therapy are like you’re just enough you’re perfect, now it’s like, you’re just normal and that’s okay and things can be hard either way, why add the pressure of having to be special?

14. Yes, I am one when I could have been two… and was two… and am two… But which is the lucky twin? I have this thought a lot, was Erin lucky to have lived? Was she lucky to have died when she had suffered so much? Was I lucky to have lived? When all I did was nothing? How does that make me lucky? Would we have been luckier to have had more time? Or less? I think lucky is also so dependant on timing. Especially in curling if you’re watching it - whoever goes last is lucky. So maybe I am the lucky twin.

15. I’m living with regret I would like to be rid of. I try to exhale it and I try to watch it leave my body. I got a massage last week and I was trying to actively feel my exhalation but the lower my masseuse got the more staccato my exhales were! It was the craziest thing, when he was on my shoulders and neck I could breath deeply but anywhere past my hips was very choppy breathing until finally my feet I was full blown laughing. I don’t know how this goes totally with regret but I’m going to keep the exhalation practice for now. Having regret in your body doesn’t do the soul good and certainly isn’t good for the voice.

16. Another 16 gone! I’m so happy to be back again this year and I’m so grateful to anyone who reads these thoughts and gets a little extra insight into my life. I hope it encourages you to open yourself up to whatever kooky thoughts might be bouncing around for you that month. My next show is this weekend at The Upside Bar with Resounding Silents at 9pm. Come see Rita and watch some fun silent films with live orchestration. Can’t make that, I’ve also got Karaoke on Monday Febraury 23rd also at The Upside Bar starting at 8pm.