16 Thoughts - June
My thoughts are 100% on Rita right now. We open in 5 days and I am so excited along with so many other things. This show has meant more to me than any other show I’ve done and while this isn’t the first time I’ve performed this idea, this is the first time I’m performing it with so many elements and an extended script. I have had to continually trust in myself, my team, and my work to get me through in moments when I am feeling doubtful. I think I can really do it too.
Okay, one more thought on Rita. I started a gofundme because this show is going to be a huge hit and more people need to see it. In order to do that, I want to have a New York premiere and a midwest tour, although I’ve already had interest to bring it down to Tennessee, California, and Colorado too! If you have been following along from a distance help me come to you and go HERE to be a part of the mission to SAVE OPERA. Yes, it is that serious. We’ve already raised over $2,000 in the first week! Definitely enough to get us started on planning, but the goal is $10k to be able to make it all happen.
Now some random thoughts - I saw a map showing how many adults live in their birth state, and MN was in the top percentile. After being back there last month and seeing my friends I grew up with, I felt such pride being from such a wonderfully homey and diverse state. I mean, I started running away from home when I was 3 and always wanted to move far away, BUT I could also see myself going back there. Maybe.
I made a one handed catch on the train this month. Last month, thought #8 was dedicated to the people who have legitimately fallen into my arms on the subway and the trend has continued on. I say one handed catch because the man I caught actually only had one hand, I didn’t ask why. He was traveling between the cars while the train was going, something you’re not supposed to do but happens everyday, and he lost his footing and couldn’t keep the door open. I reached and helped him open the door and got him back in the subway car. Mind you - this was a BUMPY ride and a full car and everyone just stared at us. I chatted with him and told him that I’ve been catching people ever since my Aunt passed and he told me he’d had 3 strokes in the last year and sometimes isn’t as strong as he thinks he is. Then I got off the train and I’ll maybe never see him again.
I had to go to Whole Foods three times in a day and I forget why. There was a moral but I didn’t write it down and the only note I kept was Whole Foods thrice. It was a good thought tho… gone forever.
I need to learn more about finances and investing. Any of my followers have good advice? I’m thinking about reading some books by Ramit Sethi, I heard him on a podcast and he sounded smart.
New York is filled with people having the worst day of their life. When did we all stop noticing each other? Is because it’s safer to not intervene? Do we have an obligation to each other?
New York has also recently been filled with people having the best day of their life and much of that is in thanks to the Knicks and now The World Cup. Sports bring people together in a tribal way that I can get behind because it doesn’t really matter.
These trees still smell so damn good even when they smell nasty, you know what I mean? Like NAAAASTY. Happy pride to the trees.
Sunday night there was a New Moon in Gemini trining Chiron at the end of Aries which is an inverse of my natal chart. I was born on a New Moon at the end of Aries with Chiron in Gemini. I’m using it to set intentions of being more authentically confident, and less resentment for what my life is. Someone asked me if I do more opera or more comedy and I said, “No one hires me for anything that’s why I had to write my own show” And it felt like I threw up. That is not how I want to describe my work anymore, that is not how I want to think of myself. I wrote Rita because I did and I’m so glad to be the one with the ability to do it. End of sentence. And yeah people have really overlooked me for their normal ass shows but you know what? If I had been so busy singing traditional opera I don’t know that I would have been able to do the rest of the things I do. Everything works out the way it’s meant to and I want to stand behind my life with pride, not just pain.
I got my nails done this week in preparation for this show and I decided to do Ruby Slipper Red becuase I needed the wonder of Dorothy. I needed to tap into the feeling of having to do something because you have no other choice, and the need to find the courage from within to realize that’s all you ever lost. I gotta read those books.
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I can muster. I’ve done a good job of keeping this blog going on the 16th of each month and I’m gonna show up today with what I have. <3
