16 Thoughts - Jan 2026
The return of 16 thoughts! In 2024 I began a series called 16 thoughts on the 16th where every month I post 16 thoughts I’ve had. It was such a beautiful touch stone to stay consistent on the blog and a way to interact with readers. I let go of it last year and now, I’m calling it back. So check back here every month for updates, information, and just random ass thoughts that kick around in my brain.
The first thing on my mind is my home state of Minnesota. It’s been a week since Renee Good was shot in the face and called a “fucking bitch” by a Jonathan Ross who needed to feel like a strong man with a gun. I am so proud of the people of Minnesota who have held the line and said this is not okay in our cities, states, or anywhere in the country. If you want more resources on what to do if ICE is raiding near you (they will be eventually) click here. If you’d like ways to help immigrant communities in MN click here, this is a huge list of places accepting help. There is a protest in Woodbury this weekend which is fantastic - love to see more suburbs joining in. Dress warm, Minnesotans and stay strong. <3
New Year Readings are STILL going strong if you haven’t gotten yours let me know and I will get you on the schedule. I’ve been doing a new spread where we break the year down into quarters then draw 3 cards per quarter. Lots of important world order astrology is happening this year so it’s nice to get a look at how you and your chart fit into everything. I also write it all up and give you a little description to refer to throughout the year. I’m doing a sliding scale $50-100 this year but if $50 is a deterrent then let me know we can still find you something <3
Update on my knee - the doctor has used the phrase, “improved but unresolved” which felt like after my MRI in 2023 where they called me “unremarkable”. First they thought my MCL was injured and now they think maybe it’s an inner miniscus thing? I still think it was a bone bruise that went really deep. Fortunately, it has only ever improved but god damn it’s taking its sweet time to recover.
I’ve got a few upcoming performances I’m excited about - February 22nd at The Upside Bar I am teaming up with the Resounding Silents folks and hosting 4 short films as Rita Libretto! It’s a perfect mix of getting me to compose some music, and getting to play as Rita so please come through if you’re on the UWS that evening. No Cover! Click Here for More Info
5. February 15th I am returning to the cast of Kind of Queer…Mostly Anxious for a cheeky queer sketch show, ticket info upcoming!
6. Next Karaoke with me at The Upside is Monday February 23rd 8-11pm
7. Mannequins are scary, yo. I have been through a range of intensity with my mannequin phobia but recently they tricked me into comfort and I was really spooked. At the height of this phobia I was known to walk weird in stores, switch sides of the sidewalk with my walking companion, I even pushed my dear Christopher into the street one time because a mannequin popped out of nowhere on a corner and startled me and my instinct was to protect him… into oncoming traffic. Anyway - earlier this month I was admiring a really cute top without realizing the wearer was not real at all! I caught her eyes and she spooked me! With AI animatronix coming in hot I really need to nip this one in the bud.
8. Crying on the train is one of the easiest ways to pick up men in this city. Ironically, when I’m crying on the train, I’m not usually trying to pick up men, but it’s nice to know I have the option. There’s something about the solitude in a sea of people, under the ground, defying time and space, whooshing through the under earth that makes it very easy for me to let loose and cry. The men that talk to me usually don’t bother me, in fact they’ve all commented on my beauty (as if that’s what I’m crying about?), and they ask if I know how important I am, and then inevitably ask for a date. It’s a funny thing that happens to me fairly often, anyone else?
9. If you’ve been reading this blog for a bit you know I contemplate death just about everyday. Sometimes it comes to an intensity and I try to reign it in but I had a nice insight over Christmas. I was unfortunately dealing with a health issue that was getting worse, and could be life threatening if it got worse quickly, but for the moment was stagnant enough that the note from the doctor was to just watch it and check in after the holidays. Basically I got a rash from a medicine I was taking. A medicine I was taking in the hopes that I would obsess less about my own mortality and body limitations. So here I am on Christmas, with my family, taking medicine to help me not obsess, while obsessing in such a visual way (the rash is growing!) and all the while reading lots on Steven Johnson’s Syndrome which is an emergency level life threatening condition that I could very possibly develop. But I thought to myself - “If this really is it, if SJS is going to take all my skin tonight and I am dying tomorrow, do I really want to be spending my last Christmas thinking about it? It’s already going to take time from me - why give it a head start?” Now I’m off the medicine, the rash is clearing up and I’m trying to take that mentality into everything because that’s the point in life right? That we know it’s fleeting, and that’s a good thing not a scary thing.
10. I’ve been practicing piano more intentionally for the first time since leaving college (Which was 15 fucking years ago) and let me tell you - you get better with practice! Especially when you practice the boring stuff like chord inversions and 7ths in every key and all that. Watch out - I’m gonna be so good some day. Check my progress on 2/22 at Upside.
11. How nervous do I really need to be about data breaches? Every once in a while I hear that some health insurance company has had an issue, or some random thing has leaked my passwords but how serious do we need to take these? My face is the majority of my passwords now and Mark Zuckerberg has all my pictures and Elon Musks has my tax info and everything else… I just want to know if it’s worth worrying about REALLY.
12. My new year's resolution is no deep fried food unless I’m at the MN state fair. It’s been a long time since I’ve had a food restriction resolution and you gotta be careful with that BUT I think it will do wonders for my colon health and it feels good having a little restriction. I am very serious about New Years Resolutions and this one is a doozy so wish me luck and I’ll see the fried pickles in 2027.
13. Today, we say goodbye girl to 3i-Atlas, the interstellar comet that graced our solar community earlier in the summer. It went behind the sun from our viewpoint in December and at 5pm eastern today you can tune in here to watch her leave our earthly sights forever! If you haven’t learned about this comet I highly recommend it, we’ve never seen anything like this in recorded history and astronomers learned a whole lot about the inner parts of the milk way by observing her. They will probably get a couple more close up shots of her when she goes by Jupiter in March, so keep an ear to the skies and say so long!
14. Fasci- comes from the latin Fascis meaning to bundle, could be hay, flowers and most recently, political ideas.
Fascinate - means to hold someones attention, it comes from fascinum which is to bewitch
Fascism - bundling of political groups into one entity and one party
15. I’m writing some music based on Dantes Inferno and listening to a lot of 13c Italian polyphony and I found this absolutely delightful banger I’d like to share with you. Summer is icumen in.
16. Progress day to day can feel really negligent or even laughable but then the progress over time is incredible. Look at this website - look at the blogs - look at the posts! It’s been 5 years since I built it and while I have more ambitions and more places I think I can grow I just want to be really grateful for what little mark on the world I have made. And thank you for sticking through these blogs and these shows and all the ridiculous thoughts that pop into my head and out my fingers into the words that you read. Creating space for reflection and wonderment in the year of 2026 is going to be exceedingly important and I’m so glad to bring back the 16 Thoughts. Thank you for being here to witness me <3
